I want to post about sooo many things -- but I just don't know where to begin.

Or where to even end, if you know, I do decide to begin.



Gah, this is what happens when you take a break and come home to enrollment chaos. Well, not really. But I bet that's part of the reason.

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It's a strange feeling;

to feel so lost even though there's a path laid out for you;

to feel like you hit the brick wall you (thought you) just demolished.



I think my head is playing tricks with me again.


Maybe I should go hermit for a few days. Stay at home, clean my room, fix my internet life, play video games -- you know, slack off from everything in general, do relaxing things -- sort of -- like I used to when I was in high school. I think... it'll do me some good.

It feels like it'll be a breath of fresh air.

Somehow.

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Maybe its not even me.

I'm so... worried.

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On the brighter side, I had a dream and it went like this:

I was in St. Paul, in my highschool uniform, and guess what. I had Influenza A(H1N1)! So it was really retarded, everyone else was running around me as if the fire drill alarm had been sounded, and I had to rush to the clinic in the midst of the rampaging students and teachers shouting "H1N1 OUTBREAK!" (And how could it be an outbreak if it was just me?)

Anyway, there were even strange ugly marks around my body -- like the ones when you have the pox. So Sacla said,

"Are you sure that's H1N1 and not Chicken Pox?"

And I replied, "Hey, you're right! I've never gotten Chicken Pox before."

And Sacla* smiled, and I smiled, and Kyoy* thought we were retarded.

And I woke up.

*Literally, sacla and kyoy, as themselves in my dream


Well, its not so much the bright side, I guess, but its kind of funny, eh?