AME NO JIDAI

November 28, 2009
A-Venue Hall, Makati City

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See you there!!!

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I slaved over my Hong Kong Recap post but in the end this came out first. Hahaha.

I'm going to be spamming all my online journal with ads so be ready, okay? ;D

So I probably did very, very crappily this semester -- but hey, what the heck. What's done is done and there's no going back. I have a lot of regrets, because I knew I could've done something to make my grades (life in general) better yet I still did nil. Still, I'd like to think I'm past the point of crying over whatever I lost or could've had because there's no turning back time. Whatever the result is, I probably deserved it.

So if in some case I fall, well, at least I know its my fault this time around.

Well once you fall there's no way but to go up again, right?


It's just kind of sad that I ruined the streak I had going. This semester really made me lose my momentum. I feel so lost now.

But you know what, I think there's a cure to that. And that is --

some good rest and

HONG KONG!

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Excuse my priorities.

I don't deserve this trip to Hong Kong, I know, but I feel like I'm going to be a wreck without it. This semester has been so bad (my worst, or second worse, depends on the way you look at it) that if there was no silver lining at the end of it I'd probably just start moping. And being weepy, more so than usual.

And so I thank my parents and love them for giving me this opportunity to go to a foreign country with my friends. Its not a common experience and I'll be sure to treasure it!

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Plus with this I'll feel guilty if I don't do anything about my internal crazy problems the moment I come back.

So --

with that

I promise I'll do better next semester!


And that's a promise to myself. I have to work!

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Moping aside,

ITS SEMESTRAL BREAAAAAAAAAAK


Oh yeah this means I get to clean my room, right? Yay! (Don't look at me like that, its my favorite household activity.)

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VOCALOIIIIIID

This post is so random, I swear. Well I'll make the Vocaloid post some other time because I'll probably still be addicted by tomorrow. But guh Len makes me kgjdlsf. I think his songs are my favorite for now.

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Ru ri ra ra

This really is the worst semester of my life.


dklfjsjfk I hate this. I want to be happy enough to greet wuzu in this post without ranting about school life, but fkdsj I feel like I'm being devoured whole by the negative feelings brought upon by today. I can spend all day ranting and raving and cursing to make it go away but it'll probably just creep up behind me and weigh me down 'til I crawl and die.

I can probably put the blame on all sorts of things but in the end I have my faults too and really if it weren't for those faults things might've been better. dlskfjlkf All I want now is to have a good cry and just wallow in my depression and sleep. But I can't even do that because I've got another thing due at 10PM, no extensions.

I seriously just want things to end.

Why must life be so f-ed up at all the wrong moments?

aaaaaaaa

(I'd make the a's longer but it'll look like spam. No, no, this doesn't quite cut what I'm feeling though. Ffffff)

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On the bright side, happy birthday, wuzu! ♥ I hope your day was well and fine. I'm sorry I wasn't able to stay with you for a long time. I'll make it up to you, okay? Ilu~ stay safe and dry with Takuya-Infinity (are you seriously not changing his name?)!

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I want to bounce back and not leave a bitter aftertaste so I will say

I NEED FANDOM SDKLFJH

Joining the trend. CH-CH-CH-CHAIN COMBO!

You are The High Priestess

Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.

The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

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I actually also got The Devil, The Magician, and The Star when I changed answers -- but all still valid and truthful. I guess I'm fickle that way? I chose this because I felt that this was the closest to who I really am. (Also The Magician, but then that result would make me look like a trap hahaha.) Anyway, I learned from a certain Sorting Hat that its your choice that makes you who you are. So I chose this.

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Anyway, I won't make this a long post but I'll take the time to say this before the day ends:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, himitsu_no_hime! Thank you for today. Stay happy~ ;D Ilu!

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Got an exam tomorrow then on Friday then on Monday then on Tuesday. AND OH A PROJECT DUE TOMORROW -- which I haven't even started. Wew, talk about epic cramming.

Oh well, I'll manage.

[ 12:15 PM ]

So as I ate my bulalo lunch my chest started to hurt. In pangs. And I thought: I am going to die because of eating too much bone marrow my veins are going to clog up and I'll get a stroke and end up dead on the floor. Half of the whole chunk of bone marrow was still there and I considered ignoring it but no, dying so what, at least I was eating something really tasty that melted in my mouth.

I ate it all.

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So lunch's over and I'm still alive. I should really be typing this paper of mine due in an hour but yeah, its only one page and -- oh alright I'll finish it already ---


[ 12:29 PM ]

Alright I'm done. See? That wasn't so bad. It was a paper about "personal philosophy". Not too hard, considering its all opinion and no research. Plus its only one page. Aaand 1.5 space.

This paper is due at 1PM for a certain class which I am having make-up for at the same time. But I haven't taken a bath yet. And yes, I do not plan on abandoning this post. So I'll finish this then I'll take a bath then I have to do some errands for mom. What time will I arrive in class, I wonder. Luckily my teacher knows my mom makes me do errands when she is not around so I'll just have to text my classmate that I'll arrive at around 2PM due to said reasons and ta-da! All done. What, don't give me that look! That class is until 4PM and the major event of the day would be just computing grades, anyway. Oh, and reading our personal philosophies. Mmm.

Don't ask me why I didn't do my errands earlier. Well, its partly because I didn't do my paper yet. And why didn't I do my paper earlier? Weeell...

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I wrote and AstralxAera [TF] fanfic for sacla during the height of Ketsana because she lived in Cainta, and me and kyoy thought she was swimming in the river Styx or on bunking out on her rooftop. I thought their house flooded, so in the blur of worry I made her a fanfic to make her feel better.

Well, their house didn't flood after all, which is a good thing. Still, as I love her, I finished the fanfic. I haven't written in a long time, and I've got tons of unfinished/unposted fanfics rotting away somewhere in my drive, but I plan to at least finish some (like that AkiraxSaki [Eden of the East] one I'm fond of) and get them up at renaissance_era.

Just so you know, the fic is about Astral and Aera in a very flooded Reoda. They experience what Sacla didn't -- that is: swimming in a raging flood river, seeking shelter above a roof, and well, being together with the person you least expect to be with in a situation like that. It's rather sad, really; except its Astral and Aera. So its a little snarky. And perverted. Well, maybe it depends on how you look at it.

Kyoy told me I should title it "Ondoy" ("Ketsana") and I'm seriously thinking of considering it.


I've also been working on [TF], believe it or not (Kyoy would probably say 'not', lol ilu, but really I am!), but in a really slow pace. My writing style and mood changes so much that I'm having a hard time keeping it consistent. I guess that just proves how much an amateur I still am -- I'm not confident with the way I write yet so I keep on changing styles. Its rather disheartening, since I want to write steadily, but at the same time I'm having a good time experimenting. Still, I want to finish [TF]. I don't think I can die peacefully from that excessive bone marrow intake unless I do.

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[ 12:45 PM ]

Remember how I said my class was at 1PM? Well I haven't proceeded with my bath yet and my mom's errands are still hanging in the air.

I think this is my cue to go.


But hey, at least I posted, right?

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[EDIT 01] Officially, this post ended at 12:53PM and not at 12:45PM. Yes, I still haven't taken a bath. La la la.

Wow, its been ages.

It's not a question, its a statement. I haven't typed the url to this journal in months. Realizing this, I asked myself: where has my life gone? I didn't even notice that I was in an unannounced hiatus for so long. Still, despite my on-off periods of absence, I have no intention of deleting this journal. My updates might be sporadic and random, but I'm not leaving my LJ alone. I have no intention of leaving you guys alone. I don't even know if any of you are still interested in getting updates from this journal. If you are, I love you. If you aren't, I still love you -- and please forgive me for the spam.

Really. How I wish I could visit the internet like I used to.


But anyway, on to life-updates. ( well most of the time I just sleep in the car )

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As for what happened during the Ketsana Saturday of Doom, well, I was at school at the time. Luckily I had Vivi-kun (that's my dad's Honda CRV, which I drive 90% of the time nowadays) or else me and wuzu would probably have been drenched. We were stuck in UP for 5 hours or so because of the floods. Driving around, we saw everything in our area -- and I have to say it was like THE END OF THE WORLD. Like a scene straight out of "The Day the Earth Stood Still" -- or was that "The Happening"?). Everything was gray, and at a standstill. It was like we were all just waiting for something to swallow us whole.

Another thing I could compare it to would be Suzumiya Haruhi's closed space. But yeah, that would be too dorky of me. (Seriously though, it was one of the first things that came into my mind).

Anyway.

I'm happy to say that none of my relatives or friends got severely hurt. Flooded, yes; but really people are more important than things and I'm just grateful that everyone's fine.

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I spent the week after Ketsana volunteering here at Camp Aguinaldo. My choirmates, neighbors and friends came to help out too. We packed relief goods, arranged clothes, delivered plastics... there were tons of stuff to do, and I'm proud to say we did all we could! My body hurt after since we carried all sorts of heavy loads, but I don't regret anything. Knowing that the volunteering we did could help hundreds of families out there made any kind of hurt worth it.

I'm just bitter tongs08 and jae_esca got to ride the chopper to deliver relief goods. How cool is that, huh? I wanted to ride too but besides the fact that my dad said no, there were no other chopper rides to go on since Super Typhoon Parma came soon after. Bad weather = no chopper take-off, dude.


Now I just kick Nono when he shows me his cellphone vid of the view of Manila from the sky. Talk about rubbing it in, man! Hmph, I'll get my chance too, just you wait!

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Today is my dad's birthday.

Got him a caricature as a gift! I had it made in Greenhills. I'm not completely satisfied with it, but its pretty much alright and worth the money. Concept: he's playing golf in his camouflage uniform. He's also got a big medal around his neck. Haha, at least its pretty amusing to look at. I hope he likes it!

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I'm excited for the semester to end. Just two more weeks and it'll be all over, and things will get better. I can feel it.

(Not to mention that me, seikochan, nemurae, sm16 and kyoybb are going to Hong Kong on the 24th! Its probably my most anticipated event of the year! *o* Who wouldn't feel better after that, right?)


C'mon Aya, its the last stretch! Freedom awaits!

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PS Is that thunder I hear D:

Alright I have like an FR, pre-lab and a reflection paper to finish, but hey if the meme looks fun and you only need to copy-paste it to pimp it, why not right?



❝which 'dere' are you ?❞


I'd love to know what you think. And oh! If you answer this meme too feel free to comment here and link your thread to me. I'd be happy to comment on yours too!

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Yea yeah back to work, I know. Nyuuur.





[EDIT 01] Okay so that was stupid of me, I forgot to put in the thread lol. Anyway, fixed!

I'd love to be permanently revived but I also want to be honest, so I'll honestly say that I'm not completely back. I will update from time to time, though, as I have been doing the past... er, months.

Still, it would be great to hear from you guys. You have no ideas how I miss you all! School has chained me to one of its teeth, you see; if I move an inch I'll get crushed and eaten, sliding helplessly down that slimy throat. With all the saliva. And other pitiful students who got eaten. And gastric juice. Wew.

So sad, so sad. I want my peaceful, hermit-like internet life back. Thankfully I'm not too socially-deprived on the rl sphere, but that's only probably thanks to UP AME and the fact that sm16 and kyoy are in the same school as I am. But really. I want the rl/il balance to be the same, like before. I just don't spend too much time on the internet as I used to. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing, but who cares? I miss cyberspace, period.

And on a related note: several times I've wished that I want to experience highschool again. And to think I spent a time of those four years wishing I was out of it. As they say, regret comes last!


Anyway, enough of the mindless ranting and on to the memes! I do this for kyoy, whom I love and want to make happy. ;D She requested me to do some memes, and so here they are!



MEME 01

List 10 of your favorite characters from different fandoms, and ask people to spot patterns in your choices, and if they're so inclined, to draw conclusions about you based on the patterns they've spotted.

This is not in order of preference, or anything. Just a random order.

1 ☆ Hirasawa Yui - K-on
2 ☆ Furukawa Nagisa - CLANNAD
3 ☆ Kimihiro Watanuki - xxxHolic
4 ☆ Takizawa Akira - Eden of the East
5 ☆ Narumi Ayumu - Spiral ~Suiri no Kizuna~
6 ☆ Rise Kujikawa - Persona 4
7 ☆ Virginia Maxwell - Wild ARMs 3
8 ☆ Ron Weasley - Harry Potter
9 ☆ Aya Brea - Parasite Eve
10 ☆ Death - Sandman


MEME 02

List the first ten series that come to mind. Your friends will comment with the character from each series that they think you are most like.

1 ☆ K-on!
2 ☆ CLANNAD
3 ☆ Spiral ~Suiri no Kizuna~
4 ☆ Final Fantasy (any)
5 ☆ Wild ARMs (any)
6 ☆ Persona 4
7 ☆ Harry Potter
8 ☆ Haruhi Suzumiya
9 ☆ Detective Conan
10 ☆ Red Garden


MEME 03

Give me a character from any fandom (or from real life lol) you know I am into and I will tell you—
❶ My favorite thing about that character.
❷ My least favorite thing about that character.
❸ One person I would ship them with in their own 'verse.
❹ One crossover ship for them I think would be neat.

And finally,

MEME 04

Give me an imaginary fic title along with a character or pairing and I will write anything from one sentence to a whole fic working back from that title.

I'm afraid I'll only do the first four for meme 04, though, I'm sorry. ;A; I just want to write again, but I don't have enough time to do much. Nyuuur~ I'm sorry.

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In any case, please do the memes, guys! I miss you guys a lot. I apologize if the post is kind of long, but hey I'll make it up by not posting for a week or two again. ;D Just kidding.

Take care y'all.



I'm off to do read Harry Potter fanfics or something uh, work -- I mean -- now. Seriously!

And so I die for a month and revive with this.

Gah, why am I always like this?



UP AME FREE Filmshowing!
July 20, 2009, 1:00-4:00 PM at PH 213-215
Featuring:
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Sayonara Zetsubou-Sensei: Ep 1-3
K-On!: Ep 1-3
Genshiken: Ep 1-3

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So come if you can, my lovelies!

I want to post about sooo many things -- but I just don't know where to begin.

Or where to even end, if you know, I do decide to begin.



Gah, this is what happens when you take a break and come home to enrollment chaos. Well, not really. But I bet that's part of the reason.

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It's a strange feeling;

to feel so lost even though there's a path laid out for you;

to feel like you hit the brick wall you (thought you) just demolished.



I think my head is playing tricks with me again.


Maybe I should go hermit for a few days. Stay at home, clean my room, fix my internet life, play video games -- you know, slack off from everything in general, do relaxing things -- sort of -- like I used to when I was in high school. I think... it'll do me some good.

It feels like it'll be a breath of fresh air.

Somehow.

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Maybe its not even me.

I'm so... worried.

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On the brighter side, I had a dream and it went like this:

I was in St. Paul, in my highschool uniform, and guess what. I had Influenza A(H1N1)! So it was really retarded, everyone else was running around me as if the fire drill alarm had been sounded, and I had to rush to the clinic in the midst of the rampaging students and teachers shouting "H1N1 OUTBREAK!" (And how could it be an outbreak if it was just me?)

Anyway, there were even strange ugly marks around my body -- like the ones when you have the pox. So Sacla said,

"Are you sure that's H1N1 and not Chicken Pox?"

And I replied, "Hey, you're right! I've never gotten Chicken Pox before."

And Sacla* smiled, and I smiled, and Kyoy* thought we were retarded.

And I woke up.

*Literally, sacla and kyoy, as themselves in my dream


Well, its not so much the bright side, I guess, but its kind of funny, eh?